All i felt was the rush
and my legs turned to mush 
lost all my power to reason with my gut
lying on my back on this rosary i clutch frozen in the moment and i think i'm really fucked
tonight im gonna die
but i can see the sun come up
i'm so fuckin high i feel it running through my blood
collapsing my lungs all this hate to which i've clung
i'm deaf and i'm dumb, what the fuck have i done?
hallucinating hold my hand i can't catch my breath
and help me, i've got pains in my chest
paranoia's agitating cardiac arrest
a hypochondriac whos emulating visions of her death
i could have an aneurysm vessel bursting in my head 
half-dead like momma 
did i see her lying in the bed?
can she see me lying naked on the floor?
praying to the lord 
cause i don't wanna live no more
give me a reason to live 
cause i wanna die 
why won't you forgive? 
look what you've done to me
my head's in a sieve, but i feel alive 
look what i did, i'm so wasted
envision my oblivion 
saliva hangin on my chin 
another night of partyin 
with vomit on my cardigan 
druggin, clubbin, fuckin up in public
cookin up my demon in my betty crooker oven 
suck it, base it, dragons chase it i'm nameless and faceless
i'm so wasted
head is heavy, eyes are rolling 
feeling like my skin is boiling 
puking in a dirty toilet
i can't control it
help me, let me out
or imma die tonight in some fuckin strangers house
teeth and tongue are numb with all my might
i try to shout, no matter what i do 
no words are coming out
(scream) 
mind is snapped my relapse poisoned from rejection 
and i'm about to fucking crack
fade to black
as this euphoria enslaves me
lord take me back
why won't you come and save me?
give me a reason to live 
cause i wanna die 
why won't you forgive?
look what you've done to me
my head's in a sieve, but i feel alive 
look what i did, i'm so wasted