It only hurts me when I'm awake 

It seems to die with dreaming 

And there's only so much that I can fake 

When my whole life's careening down 



I will not die 



It only kills me 'cause I'm alive

and living this disaster 

And it's all I can do now to survive 

I live to beat my master down 



I will not die

Down I will not die 



When I'm well I long to be 

Only in love with you 

But I guess I'll never be whole 

And you know it's true 

It does not stop me that we all die 

I know this trip's to slaughter 

But if only I could let me cry 

I feel the healing water roll down 



I will not die 

Down I will not die 

Down I will not die