I think I'm almost happy here

But I will never regret venturing despite fear

Because everyone wanted me to see that we could not thrive

So if this is reality, then I guess I don't regret the nights I thought that I had died

Cause sometimes I feel like nothing, and nothing ever changes 

When changes consume me through these changing stages

Everything we could have done differently is now just a memory

And the love I hoped for is hanging on a rope 

And it's funny how artistic we become when our hearts are broken

Through this constant collapse, the thought of relapse



I guess it's safe to throw our bones back in the sea

I guess it's safe to throw our bones back in the sea



With this saltwater for blood and fear of falling in love

I'm almost happy here but I'm still moving

I just want us to run wild, young beauty

Because I always thought I would be okay

And some days I still feel the same, but everyday the same way I feel afraid to embrace grace

Cause I know I don't deserve it

And I know that I can't earn this, and I know that I can hurt this heart that I have grown within

But it's a a given to even someone as sick as me

Now I can breathe seeing that I'm not living in apathy



So I guess we'll throw our bones back into the sea

I guess it's safe to throw our bones back into the sea



Come with me

And I hope I stay alive because ghosts can't love through this broke love and turn to above

In a quick dash, feel the impact on this car crash 

And pray to God I can be forgiven and have my friends back

Where we sleep is where we dream, and I haven't slept for days

Rem cycles are a memory of when I was sitting in a dorm room 

Thinking of how much greener the grass would be if I became a touring act someday

But now I'm dreaming or sinking, most nights they feel the same 

Since I can lose one friend, lose all friends and still not keep those demons at bay

And I said all my friends are trees, with the roots in the earth 

What hurts is that the branches in a community 

We've labeled our hearts into a collective scene

Into a collective faithless dream of empty courage and empty hearts

Hollow light, hollow lovers, always falling apart

So I'll love life and let go and try my best to understand there's nothing new to know

Though I didn't say it's true, I still feel the same, like I died with you

And I feel the strain, taking two steps back on these wooden floorboards 

I'll beg for more, and pray this isn't just a retrospective moment

Not just a soul begging for catharsis, but rather the start of a new me and a real movement



God forgive me