how long will i go on

turning my back and closing my eyes

wishing you were here but pretening you're dead

it's not so bad here in mediocraty

no one expects much of me

but i think of you and your thoughts of me

i hurt so badly but i can't leave



you kiss me when i'm sleeping

when i have no will to wake

it's will that keeps me from you

it's a change i'll have to make



will i ever be able to do the things my heart feels for you?

am i able to stop the things i do not want to do?

i want to hold the hand that guides me and loves me

but this stubborn will has its hold on me

misery is my cradle, i'm dying in my needs

will providence shine his face on me?



pick me up off this floor out of this mess i've made for myself

my flesh is weak but my spirit is willing

river's bridge of stones i'll fall water deep

your whirlpool love will hold me still

i'm safe in the cradle when i'm in your light

spirit come and make everything alright