As the autumn leaves fell in the month of october
I found myself chiefin hay and everyday never sober
got gin drippin down my chin and smoke in my lungs
pullin hellified hos with my devilish tongue
silk tailor maid i dont need your name on my back
got these bitches mind addicted to that shit like it 
was crack
I went from good to bad, bad to worse to evil
Never thought I'd see myself not trusting my own people
Right up under my nose
In the form of niggas and hos
All playing by the rules, cause that's all I ever been 
told
An eye for an eye, do onto others as they do you
Turn the other cheek, and watch how many mothafuckas do 
you
Decieving
Got you believing while they fiending
Tryin to break even
A Nigga Damn near stopped breathin
scared for my sons like mind is already at the end
trying to make a change so they dont have to go where i 
have been
But then, the line between sin and what's right
opened my heart to god
and hope i get in touch right
i just might take a life
stop breath
bring death to all of my visinity until there is just 
me left

Chorus

I've been searching all this time
trying my best to find my way
running around trying to chase this money
it's taken me around the world in a day
blowing smoke all out my nose
getting in and out of clothes
fooling around with midnight hos
man that's just the way life goes...

It's hard to run
Tobacco from the blunts got me winded
My sanity has ended
I'm now where I pretended
to be
as far as the eye can see
there is no one but me
Ruins from a past life
as far back as last night
burn like witchcraft
giving my path plenty light
I close my eyes
I cannot believe what I'm seeing
evil demons, posing like they human beings
Invade my trip, those bitches came equipped with banana 
peels
tryin to make a pimp nigga slip
some have no lips
some have no eyes
and it's strange how they never stop the lies or the 
spies
from cluttering
damn near smothering
always hovering
above me
masked face, actin like they love me
always want to judge me
playa that aint for you to do
cause one day, higher power's got something for me and 
you

Chorus

I close my eyes and try to imagine I'm somewhere else
other than this hell we call earth 
from birth to death
set my mind free chemically
helps me solve
O-Z's of trees on to me until my spirit is numb
oral inhalation
hallucogenics, sedation
illegal medication
forces me into hibernation
now my thoughts seem as vivid as a rainbow
I'm visited by an angel, who come to make my pain go
On the outside, it's all peaches and cream
In my mind I hear screams
from horrible dreams
flashbacks of some shit I wish I could forget
on the verge of having a fit
not afraid to admit
I'm lost
and I don't know
which way to go
I don't know who I can call that can save me so
I'm gonna drop to my knees
and ask to be forgiven
and pray for another way for me to be livin (repeat)

Chorus