Go and kill yourself, that's what they told me
You're not worth it, your music's shit
Tried the best I could but I just couldn't
Lost it all and how the fuck I'm still here,
Is beyond me cause all I ever do is think
Drink a lot and jump on a track and think
Write and I think but I just don't think
I overthink so badly that I lose myself
Break myself tryna lose myself
Lose myself even more tryna find myself
Girls fucking hate me even though I be myself
What I do and what I am is never enough
They all say it's my fault and it's tough
Told me to get a grip when I tried to take my life
Battling haters, doubters, anxiety, depression
Alcohol, sadness, I'm feeling empty
Feeling lonely, tryna figure out if this is worth it
Is it worth it? Do I go and fight another day
Or do I park here and go for round three?
Wait, where's the fucking tablets?!
They don't care about me and that's clear
I get that but all I wanna really do is be me
Show the world that I'm a writer,
A rapper, fair enough it's a mismatch
5 foot 10, 10 stone kid white from Newcastle tryna make it
My hometown won't touch me, that's okay
Worldwide love, that's even better
What if I left here and left an open letter
Just give me space, I just need to breathe
The time will come I'll leave, ahh
I'm running, but what am I running from?
My fears? My past? My mistakes? Myself?
It doesn't add up cause I don't know myself
Do I give it all I've got or give it all up
Stop here and watch my team feel let down
See the disappointment in their eyes when I give it all up
I don't wanna give up, cause this is my dream
Every time I walk out and I see the bleam
See all the people chanting my name
Yeah it shows a brand new flame
But I can feel the flame slowly burning out
I don't have the energy like I used to
Dealing with more shit than you could possibly imagine
Ryan's had my back since the first day
Was always there without the pay
I overdosed, but it wasn't for fucking sympathy
What do people not get? I was down
Down in the gutter, down and out, down in the dumps
Fighting my way out a never ending story
A never ending fight I wish would end
Couldn't see straight, just needed a friend
But they didn't give two fucks then Ryan,
Threw the rope down in the deep hole I was in
Helped me back out the hole and back to my feet
Threw me in the studio with my old lyrics
Couldn't thank him enough, or my fam
I fought my demons and killed most of 'em
I know they're there and they always will be
But I'm ready for the fight
I can do it, I've came so far, it feels right
No matter what happens you can do this
They will always be people that hate you
Doubt you, and make sure you feel like shit
But I'm here to tell you that you ain't shit
We all have flaws but an imperfection is what,
Makes us perfect and makes us different
I learned now what it takes to be myself
You can be yourself, don't follow what they say
Follow what your heart says and where it takes you
I was an underdog that should of never made it this far
So if I can prove them wrong, so can you
Keep fighting till you can't fight no more
You got this, I believe in you