Now that I'm alone I feel the lonely brokenness

Of all the wicked avenues I've ever sold my love on

All these moments of meekness and trembling subsided

I'm the outright abandon of this orphan child

Home is on the highway living on soft bread and solace

I guess I'm waiting for nightfall or a solar eclipse

And to wake up half empty

Only to be filled again with mourning

He's my evil shadow dove

My black Palamito

Can't break him like a diamond skull

I can't seem to do so

Can't just rub him out like the

Mob used to do so

Like memories of porno and tearstains

And tobacco O it's a mini disastro

Bigger than the ice age don't know if baby dinosaurs

Maybe could live through it, like Indians and butterflies

What's crushed is my spirit, Oh I fear it is too fragile

Like fall leaves burn like paper



I always knew I would spend a lot of time alone

No one would understand me

Maybe I should go and live amongst the animals

Spend all my time amongst the animals

And on the tracks I would go they lead to the sea

To be amongst the animals



Oh I'm just afall leaf something simple and shy lie that

That's how my heart lies down beside the sidewalk

Like an empty restaurant filled with perfume and balloons

I sit and entertain the bisarro ghosts of my soul

His name still lingers maybe lactates on my tongue

Perhaps I'm just teething for a foreign fallen destiny

Miserable but mine, I look like his mother

Or Sophia Loren in an old fashioned movie

Slow motion I cling to my child desperate for love

One day soon my brother died, made me remember all the

Subordinate feelings I cast aside

Maybe I had lied when I said I was ok

Just getting along like a little song that stops to sing and say

"Wild willow, windy winter won't you blow through me

My whole eternity"



                          Thanks to jalmeida@casadamusica.com for these lyrics