[Hook]
How does it feel to lose your mind?
Rewinding time, doing the same things twice
Tell me, how does it feel to lose your mind
Always running out of time, my life assigned to the grind
[Verse 1]
I’m surely falling backwards into my thoughts
Insane or lost, what can I do to find the answers I done sought
I feel I’m caught up in the rapture, more like the opposite
Can’t swallow it, to follow these rules society brought with it
Ought to grip something real, more soon better late than later
No anger, just acceptance of the fact I’m clinically insane
Or a major case of nigga feel he got nothing to lose
All this knowledge I’ve abused, got me saying god ain’t true
And I ain’t following you to a new, land away from living now
All I see is darkness with no eyes, no faces in the clouds
Made them bow now, I can’t get this weight up off my shoulders
I’m just talking over knocks you’d swear they think I’m moving boulders
Time is steadily making me older, more aware of my existence
How I’m supposed to survive, all on my mind signs I’m demented
I’m crazy, from the outside, don’t look too close
Cause staring over eye to eye try, you’d think you seen a ghost
[Hook]
[Verse 2]
So demented, mind be lost
Someone prey for me out of the book on a cross
Never thought I’d be the one to think of suicide
But every time I close my eyes I see my blood my body lying
I ain’t lying. I scare myself sometimes it makes me sick inside
They say be optimistic, wish it was that simple, but these though preside
I tried to take imperfections hide them, sweep them under a rug
But a thug was born so curious never the type to say no to drugs
And it never felt quite like love, was real made more for movies
Thinking every bitch and man who extends a hand is tryna do me
Am I paranoid? Sue me; I won’t be present for the hearing
I’ll be staring down a barrel farewell mind tryna find a cure man
No fearing the dark that fills the light absent of life
Leaving nothing but my voice on beats and doctrines that I right
My withering flame please reignite, the ones like me feel they have no options
Before you pull that trigger, this your one chance to stop and think