it's rock paper scissors as to whether i will get over you at all. it's

hand against hand and both hands are mine. it's standing in a circular line,

which is not to say that i'm not also happy. a happy meal with a surprise

inside. surprise, surprise is another bright light in my eyes, exposing all

the stuff i'm not calculating enough to hide. this melancholy that i carry

makes me feel so grown up at the kitchen table doing shots of resignation. i

never thought i'd see the day when i would i say i give up and tame the

stallions of my wildest expectations. but i do not want to know you this way,

surrounded by so much pain. but how am i supposed to let go of you this way,

like a bird into the sky of my brain? i think i could accept all these dark

colors as just part of some bigger color scheme if it wasn't for that drippy

string quartet of sadness underscoring each smiling scene. yeah desire drags

me right out of myself like a gas soaked rope tied to a piece of coal. and i'm

getting pretty good at looking at the bright side while the flames ripple on

the sand and swallow me whole. but this melancholy that i carry makes me feel

so grown up at my kitchen table doing shots of resignation. i never thought

i'd see the day when i would say i give up and break the stallions of my

wildest expectations. but i do not want to know you this way surrounded by so

much pain/ but how am i supposed to let go of you this way like a bird into

the sky of my brain.