the year started at the back of a train of thought 
facing the elevator 
in an awkward way
everyone drunk off of their faces, just singing our praises 
wanting in on the magic, say midnight on the second floor counting 
while you were in the corner joking about 
how it would be your last 

when we were outside having a smoke 
i heard you asking around hey, could you find me some coke 
every year is just a little bit darker 
then the darker gets darker 
then it's dark as hell 
by now you don't need a good reason 
you climb up the highest of the trees and
you laughed yourself clean 
yeah you laughed yourself clean

back inside where the party had started 
eyes shut, feet quick, really feeling ecstatic 
feelings come then they go someplace
little high big lows in any case 
a good friend is a good friend, no doubt 
but sometimes a good friend ain’t enough to grab ya and pull you out 

damn the work, damn the music 
damn the fun that's missing 
damn the drugs, damn the friends 
damn the phone that's ringing 
damn the night, damn the party 
damn the song that’s spinning and trying to lift us up 
but it only drags us down 

the year started at the back of a train of thought 
facing the elevator 
in an awkward way made a call from the side room 
hey ma, can i come home soon? 
i’m lying on the floor in the bathroom 
i’ve had it with this place, we're all going insane 
i’ve had it with this place well you've been feeling lost now 
living in the background 
hanging with a rough crowd
thinking of the times you had it all figured out 
now everyone is passed out 
blurry on the edge now 
empty as an effigy waiting to come down 
i’ve had it with this place 
we're all going insane 
i’ve had it with this place 
we’ve all gone insane 

damn the work, damn the music
damn the fun that's missing 
damn the drugs, damn the friends 
damn the phone that's ringing
damn the night, damn the party 
damn the song that's spinning 
damn the room, damn the street, damn the scene listening 
damn the home, damn the dog 
damn the planet watching
damn the mood, damn the people 
damn the door that’s closing 
damn the time, damn the ride 
damn the drive that’s missing 
damn the home, damn the dog 
damn the life that’s winning