Everyday is a struggle between what I wanna say

And what I should keep to myself 

And the words that manage to leave my lips 

Don't hurt me, but they hurt everyone else



And I find myself in need of a pause

I'm not sure why, but I think that it's because 

Of this desire to be what others want me to be 

Which is nothing close to me





But I'll see better when the smoke clears 

When the smoke clears inside my head 

And I can listen when the screaming doesn't repeat everything I've said 

And all that remains me and who I am at the end of the day 

And this happens everyday



Everyday is a battle between what I wanna know

And what I don't wanna figure out 

And everything in between in these thoughts of mine

That you know I can't live with out



And I find myself in need of a pause

I'm not sure why, but I think that it's because 

Of this desire to be what others want me to be 

Which is nothing close to me