thought about holding my breath last night 

until my face turned blue 

and waited for my world to turn black as I laid in your arms,

an air deprived suicide 


would speak to ears 

and break down walls 

I never could. 

This vertigo unconsciousness. 


You let this one slip through your fingertips. 

mine turn numb 

and there's no point to take back 

what was said 

when my heart no longer beats 

There's only time for your regret and memories 

and you cant take back, you cant take back everything you said


and after seeing my face 

this farewell scrawled in saline 

don't try to recessitate this love

because it will never breathe, 

so throw away a million pictures, 

disregard all thoughts of me, 

don't try to recessitate this boy 

with some health class remedy 

don't try don't try 


You let this one slip through your fingertips. 

mine turn numb 

and there's no point to take back 

what was said 

when my heart no longer beats 

There's only time for your regret and memories 

and you cant take back, you cant take back everything you said 


didn't you see my stomach stop moving 

did you feel my last breath on your neck