I don’t remember the first time
But I think I’ll survive
Probably there not to try to wake up because it feeds it ‘gain keeps it alive

There’s specific things
That I have to do
Day to day just to keep it at bay
You wouldn’t believe if you knew

(Oh no, this isn’t real)

He doesn’t know the secret
Here is the best part
This is going to take me
Right back to the start
If I can keep it
If it set in mind
Wait until it sets
Come try it a second time

I don’t remember the first time,
But I think I’ll survive
Probably there not to try to wake up because it feeds ‘gain keeps it alive

(Oh no, this isn’t real)
(Yeah)

He doesn’t know the secret
Here is the best part
This is going to take me
Right back to the start
If I can keep it
If it set in mind
Wait until it sets
Come try it a second time

I can feel it move
Up into my head
It is
Panic in my head
I feel it coming all
Taking over view
Oh please not tonight
There’s nothing I can do

This is bigger than me
This is in my fear
This is paedophilia
I just disappear
Swears are falling from me
Swallow up inside
Sail
Won’t make this upside

I can barely handle
I can hypothesise
Sailing through the curtains
Off into the sky
Where there is no
Depth perception
Keep preoccupied
Self deception
Nobody recognizes
It doesn’t have a name
My brother is infected
He’s acting just the same
Screaming like a siren
Up and down the hall
He just wants to stop it
He wants to end it all

I am just a child
I am nothing more
There are no basic functions
I am running for
I could run a mile
My distortion
Everything is
Disproportioned

Swallow break
All is back again
Everything is closer
More is just the same
And I can hear it
It is raining mind
I will just forget this
‘til next time
I don’t remember the first time
But I think I’ll survive