Wish I was

Too dead to cry

My self-affliction fades

Stones to throw at my creator

Masochist to which I cater



You don't need to bother

I don't need to be

I'll keep slipping farther 

But once I hold on

I won't let go 'till it bleeds 



Wish I was

Too dead to care

If indeed I cared at all

Never had a voice to protest

So you fed me shit to digest



I wish I had a reason

My flaws are open season

For this I gave up trying

One good time deserves my dying



You don't need to bother

I don't need to be

I'll keep slipping farther

But once I hold on

I won't let go 'till it bleeds



Wish I died

Instead of lived

A zombie hides my face

Shell forgotten with its memories

Diaries left with cryptic entries



And you don't need to bother

I don't need to be

I'll keep slipping farther

But once I hold on

I won't let go 'till it bleeds



You don't need to bother

I don't need to be

I'll keep slipping farther

But once I'm gone

I'll never live down my deceit