you should have showed me 

a long long time ago 

instead you kept it in your heart 

for those rough ass last sad ass days 

meaning so much to a boy 

oh he enjoyed those weekends 

never lost his faith in you 

and never put you down 

fuck no I feel shame 

as they抮e stitching up your stomach 

will I ever gain the power 

or the sperm to be a better man 

plastic forehead melts makeup on my lips 

oh daddy 

now look at me I'm all grown up 

I抦 so scared to be alone 

crazy people point their fingers 

ha ha 

I hate the smell of funeral homes 

I'm doing alright for being a bastard 

it's ok he'll be back 

she said so sweetly and so mad 

he's going out to catch a disease 

grandma grips her rosary beads 

surprises me with hot fudge and 

some late night channel 9 

The Wizard of Oz was on she helps to keep me occupied 

I feel shame 

as they抮e stitching up your stomach 

will I ever gain the power or the sperm to be a better man 

plastic forehead melts makeup on my lips 

oh daddy 

ah you left me so fragile 

hollow and so yellow 

dig you up and say 

I'm a man today 

sometimes I've forgotten 

how you smiled while rotting in your deathbed 

why daddy let me cry 

why 

you woke me up 

you woke me up........5:30