are needless so I think
striving and thriving I see
      I'm driving to the brink
avoiding annoying eternal
      complications destinations
unimportant constantly
      distorting my relations
from patience to thoughts of
      hating anyone in my mind
I find it hard to believe you
      can relate to my kind
and if I could I would
pretend that I'm alright
      by myself
If you love me as I am I'll
      put my pride on the shelf

if I can I'll pretend I'm
      alright all by myself
I'd rather drown than take
      your hand
it's the way I am

skepticism leaves a wrinkle
      on my brow
cynicism prevents my change
with this suspicion I'm caught
      in a dilemma
intervention with my psyche?
      rearrange
walls built to hinder
      the intrusion
preservation of my mental
      well being
doubt makes me value the
      safety of my distance
can it be stubbornness to
      which I cling?

if I can I'll pretend I'm
      alright all by myself
I'd rather drown than take
      your hand
it's the way I am
and if I climb a wall of pride
swim across my sea of doubt
will you love me as I am
the way I am