I think I need to cultivate my scream

I try to make you shake, I try to make you pander

To the parts of me suffocating underneath

I think I need to cultivate my humor

See I only focus on what's in between

Melancholy is my name, melancholy makes a joyful girl insane

Think I need to study how to be serene



Or I'm gonna just lose you

I'm gonna just lose you

I'm gonna just lose you now



I think I need to cultivate my laughter

I think I need to cultivate my lust

I think I need to concentrate on ugly

Or I'm gonna try to be so pretty I will bust



Or I'm gonna just lose you

I'm gonna just lose you

I'm gonna just lose you now

I'm gonna just lose you

I'm gonna confuse you

The only way I know how



It isn't fair that the only thing I

Know's what I've been taught

And it isn't fair that the only thing I

Go for's what I'm not

And it isn't fair that the only thing I

Need's what I don't have

And it cracks you up that I'm oh so sad



Should be easy enough to find the passion

I've got plenty to be passionate about

I'm obsessed with you I'm depressed with me,

I'm undressing every ghost I see

I'm embittered by the way I'm burning out



I'm gonna just lose it

I'm gonna just lose it

I'm gonna sell you my soul

I'm gonna go crazy, I'm gonna sing badly

I'm gonna concede control



I think I need to cultivate my anger, I only seem to

Have what's in between insanity is what's feeding me and

Loneliness promises to lead to

Another resting place of lost and found

See how happy I can be when I'm pretending I'm not me

Think I need to medicate my innermost girl-scout