mum and dad sit in the room silently
weeping
in the room beside, their son lies peacefully
sleeping
they are afraid to wake him with their
tears
they are not telling him but they live with
his fears

and they were never that close ever
they'll never be that close forever
while there is no one else caring about him
there is no one any more to share it with him

and I've never listened to their good advice
although they were right all the time
and now I'm almost up to pay the price
and they don't blame me, they try to stop the decline

and they don't care any more what family or
neighbours say
they've broken every contact and stay with
me all day
I want to take it a little bit longer to share
it with them
we talk for hours and hours, there still remains a lot to say

and my little sister she comes to say
goodbye
she would never understand why I had to die
she promises to be strong and not to cry
but she lets it flow and keeps thinking
why

burn me and spread my seeds in the garden
the soil will kiss my ashes and new flowers
will grow
a new life is born, another has flown
another circle is round
dear father, dear mother, dear sister
you gave me the happiest time of my life

goodbye
and I am sick of fighting this terrible 
disease
I am sick of fighting that monster in me
and the heads of the dragon always
increase
stop the suffering, this endless tunnel 
please



(c) Jo Casters - Marianne Valvekens - Herman Gillis - 1989 BE's Songs