the past is a grotesque animal and in it's eyes you see 

how completely wrong you can be 

the sun is out it melts the snow that fell yesterday 

makes you wonder why it bothered 

i fell in love with the first cute girl that i met 

who could appreciate george bataille 

standing at swedish festival discussing the "story of the eye" 

it's so embarrassing to need someone like i do you 

how can i explain i need you here and not here too 

I'm flunking out i'm gone i'm just gone 

but at least i author my own disaster 

performance breakdown and i don't want to hear it 

i'm just not available things could be different but they're not 

the mousy girl screams violence violence 

she gets hysterical cause they're both so mean and it's my favorite scene 

but the cruelty's so predictable it makes you sad on the stage 

though our love project has so much potential

but it's like we weren't made for this world 

though i wouldn't really want to meet someone who was 

do i have to scream in your face? 

i've been dodging lamps and vegetables 

throw it all in my face i don't care 

let's just have some fun let's tear this shit apart 

let's tear the fucking house apart 

let's tear our fucking bodies apart but let's just have some fun 

somehow you've red rovered the gestapo circling my heart 

and nothing can defeat you no death no ugly world 

you've lived so brightly you've altered everything 

i find myself searching for old selves 

while speeding forward through the plate glass of maturing cells 

i've played the unraveler the parhelion 

but even Apocalypse is fleeting there's no death no ugly world 

sometimes i wonder if you're mythologizing me like i do you 

we want our film to be beautiful not realistic

perceive me in the radiance of terror dreams 

and you can betray me but teach me something wonderful 

crown my head crowd my head with your lilting effects 

project your fears on to me

i need to view them see there's nothing to them 

i promise you there's nothing to them 

i'm so touched by your goodness you make me feel so criminal 

how do you keep it together? i'm all all unraveled 

but you know no matter where we are 

we're always touching by underground wires 

i've explored you with the detachment of an analyst 

but most nights we've raided the same kingdoms 

and none of our secrets are physical now