I woke up thinking how I've never had a good time 

I seem to lack the kind of life that everybody has 

I gotta have it, I gotta have it 

The perfect feeling that everybody has 

A little confused 

To why I continue 

To let the maggots enter me and live 

I better sterilize my heart today 

I better sanitize my mind again 



And when I crawl 

I bleed like an angel 

Suicide 

I'll never die because I haven't lived cause it's 

Something I could never find 

Something I could never find 



I'm ripped up by all that I've found 

Something aims at me from up in the sky 

I'm still confused 

To why I continue 

With every day I change a little more 

I have to fabricate myself today 

I have to recreate myself again 



Maybe my fault that I never really opened up 

Take away every last piece of life cause it's 

Something I could never find 

Something I could never find 



Something I could never find 

Something I could never find 

Could never find 

Could never find