Control over myself just keeps slipping away

In my head, something else has taken the hold

Digging into my nerves and my emotions

I see through these eyes but can't feel a thing

No sounds are interpreted nor sights or words

The world has become deaf, dumb, and mute

Meaningless and broken, stirringly absurd

Complication, deviation, subjugation, alieveation



Impulse inside tells me to move forward

Spastic outside world pushes me back in

Violently lashing out at the creatures

The human kind has turned me to nothing

Just violent spasms...



Connection to planet seems shaky and undefined

Wearing thin were my brain cells with time

Writing thoughts on a little piece of dirty crumpled paper

Seemed like a waste of time

Communication was a dead concept to me

Couldn't give a fuck less about those around

Told to just exist, never talk, never walk

Never think, never try, never hear any sound



Impulse inside tells me to move forward

Spastic outside world pushes me back in

Violently lashing out at the creatures

The human kind has turned me to nothing



The human kind, they aren't my kind

Mental state kinda frail, kinda frayed, kinda fucked

Medication doesn't heal me

Institutions try to kill me

Suicide never brought me peace

Earth didn't fucking want me

So I'll just violently lash out at you

Blow you all away from me

Just violent spasms

Seems right to me



Mental defects raped my life

Your padded walls raped my life

Your drugs and hate raped my life

My bullets will rape you of yours



Die