Feels better if I tell em my story



Yo, on November 24th, 1999

I was in L.A., and I was in the kitchen cookin

And I got this page right

And uh, I called back and I was informed that

My father had passed away from a herion overdose

About two hour's earlier

So this song is for him, and to him

And for all the fatherless children in the world

The mother's who raised us, the people who love us



[Verse 1]

It's a Monday, finally found the perfect beat

To speak my peace on how I came to be

The way I was raised, how I was born

Why I smile so sad, and have the eyes of a storm

Moms from Virginia, you from Rhode Island

Met up in the state where the sun's always smilin

Minds connected, physicals exchanged

Y'all both believin that the world can be changed

Time passed to 1973, and you begged my mom to create me

First she said no but she loved you too much

1974 had a child to touch

We was into other things, that ripped life scenes

Liqour, drugs, other women, destroyin dreams

But you know how women be, she tried to hold on

For the sake of your love and the beautiful bond



[Chorus]

I'ma fatherless child, it's all I ever been

It's all I ever be, since your gone from me

Still I hope you know, that I can never unlove you, love you



[Verse 2]

1974 was a year things changed

Too much alcholol makes people violent and strange

You broke the window's with a baseball bat

As my mother cried inside with me on her lap

The dream destroyed, it was time to leave

She didn't take much, just a few things of lovin me

That was the birth of this fatherless child

And a struggling mother with the world in her eyes

She did it though, put herself in college

Raisin me wit grace, givin me the knowledge

And pops you, you never came by

Never sent money never called to say hi

I use to lie to the other kids, on the block

Say I knew where you was at so the questions would stop

I fronted to my friends that you didn't mean much

But I use to cry alone, and lone for your touch



[Chorus]



[Verse 3]

Ninth grade I thought you were dead

Call my mom about a paper, and that's what you said

I was angry and confused, all because of you

Wanted to ask you why, and just say fuck you(fuck you!)

But the feelings passed, what was my options?

Studyin my face tryna find what was lost and

I decided that you didn't mean shit

That I was really worth lovin and you lossed a gift

Before that, I grew breast and things

Got raped in the bathroom, and the question sings

What it have, could it have, should it have

Been different if I had yo hand to grab?

Would I be easier to love, not so torn inside

If you would've beat that man, and stood by my side?

Would I write sad songs, and call pain daily?

How different would I be if you had raised me?



[Chorus]



[Verse 4]

1997, you called my home

From Telegraph&43, for the child you never owned

I told you come by, Adam came to help me

You were homeless and drunk, but not lookin uhealthly

We sat for hour's, I asked you every question

We sang on my porch and discussed life lession's

And I loved you, like you had always been they're

You said you'd never leave again, so I released my fears

1999, tryna to sign my deal

Ten years of hard work, finally becomin real

So I brush you off, writin songs for a movie

That was the last time I saw you, forgive me truly

The day my deal was done, you died

Wit the needle in your arm, and angels by your side

And I miss you, tattooed it on my back

Fatherless child, fade to black



[Chorus x2]