I don't want to have to build this

I don't want to have to fit in

I don't want to have to need someone 

But I do..



I don't want to have to attract boys

I don't want to have to be here

I don't want to have to eat to fill a hole

But I do..



But it's better than nothing at all

But it's better than nothing at all



I don't want to have to be angry at you

I don't want to have to blame it on my father

I don't want to feel sick around you

But I do..



I don't want to ever fall in love

I don't want to feel so insecure

I don't want to have to write this to explain 

Still I do..



This feels better than nothing at all... 

This feels better than nothing at all...