Nothing to recall

What if I just cannot give a name 

To what I think there is to blame

I'm only

freezing it out

Castaway too

numb to feel

Hail or silk or burning steel

I'm wounded by wars

I never really fought

Danny says it happens

but I would rather say 

I'm deserving my time

to breathe and scream it out

And how would anyone expect me

here to shout

"I'm glad myself is back"

I long to cry out loud

I've been outside myself

and frosting in your doubts

But I won't trail along with... 



Lithium as I wake up

Coffee to anaesthetize my shame

Doctors make it harder,

I'd only smoke it away

How can I throw it all to waist,

that bitter taste 



And now it's my turn

to spread it all about

You thought you'd get away

with all your lies so proud?

But I won't trail along 

It's time to breathe and scream it out

I've been outside myself

and frosting in your doubts

But the ice is gonna crack.