i can not feel a thing
in your presence
i’ve become stupid numb
to your indiscretions
can’t tell if i’m going crazy
dreading going home lately
you only seem to love me on my birthday,
yeah, you’ve messed me up in the worst way

i got problems
cuz you gave them to me
it’s not normal
to never feel seen
don’t know how to love you
when you never loved me
i got you in my blood
so i can’t cut you off

i got issues
with being alone
and i need you
like a kid but i’m grown
don’t know how to love you
when you never loved me
i got you in my blood
so i can’t cut you off

i don’t remember
feeling cared for
everything between us
feels so forced
tell me am i going crazy?
the pain makes me so hazy
because of you i don’t know how to be loved
because of you i don’t know how to trust, yeah

why am i not enough
why could i not call your bluff
why do i still try to be
everything that you could need
why am i not enough
why am i not enough

i got problems
cuz you gave them to me
it’s not normal
to never feel seen
don’t know how to love you
when you never loved me
i got you in my blood
so i can’t cut you off

i got issues
with being alone
and i need you
like a kid but i’m grown
don’t know how to love you
when you never loved me
i got you in my blood
so i can’t cut you off

knowing it was all you
don’t make it any less painful
i just hope one day i can heal

knowing it was all you
don’t make it any less painful
i just hope one day i can heal