This pain inside of me is so pure that its hard to ignore
I start to suffocate myself to block out all of my thoughts
I'm waking up to medication fall asleep to medication
Just cant seem to stop my concentration (SHUT UP)
Fuck it, I'm sick of myself,
All the bullshit keeps on following me
And swallowing me, right after the lobotomy,
There's nothing left inside of me
I'm just fucking hiding me and trying to numb the pain
Pill after pill after pill everyday
Blowing all my money, so I can liquefy my liver
Blazing up the weed, even though I don't smoke
Trying sleep but I cant sleep so back to medication
I don't even know if I want to live or die,
Laying on the floor feeling like I want to fly
So I can see my dad for the very first time
Would he even want to see me? just because I'm that guy
I want to overdose, its just so easy to die
I want to get outside of me, and realy feel alive