Tonight I'm posed and popping like a peacock

I'm pressing flesh, I'm smiling big, my spinning head sings "Stop, just stop"

Cause what used to calm me down

Just rips my life to ribbons now

So I keep smiling, I find my window and quick cut out



These days my hangman's hunger makes my gut kick

My sleeping mind, could map it blind

A flask, a key, a bag, a fifth

I try to will myself away

While shouting habits plead their case

So when the sun sears through my eyes

My beggar's brain can't compromise

I splash cold water, I draw the curtains, I stay inside



And I can't say that it's a sickness, more like a stranger I ask in

And later realize, was a strangler

Slipping nooses in my den

But I was lonely so I asked him, "Would you tie that one on me?"

It wasn't his fault, I was eager, and I was weak



So as I inch towards resolution

Yea I'm not sure which life feels right

A narrow noose or the wading water

The hanging head, sore open eyes

I know my brother he went one way

And at the fork I heard him say

"Don't you follow, don't go making my mistakes"

And I realized what he meant

Don't kill yourself to raise the dead

It never works you'll only end up joining them