Love is everywhere I'm not allowed.
I feel he's been to hell, 
but he's near to heaven now.
I need to see it. I can't not have it, 
so inscrutable, so beautiful.

I try. I try. I try.

His head is I don't know. 
I'm stuck outside again.
Can't get in. I can't move him.
I think I like it 
because it hurts to not know, 
Pain is so.

I tried. I tried.
I tried.