I know that times were hard

I know that you've been feelin' down

If you only knew how I'm feelin' for you

If I could take your pain

I wish that I could wash it all away 

If you only knew how i'm feelin'



Mommy I'm sorry if my first letter made you cry

To be honest with you I don't think that I wanna die

Sometimes I feel like that I'm cancerous in others lives

Thats prolley why I drink at night and sleep till 4 or 5

It's kinda hard walking through life with my distorted eyes

When I was younger I was stupid and I thought I thrived

I thought alot about everything I said in the letter

And questioned whether or not if I was dead you'd be better

You think my shorty would be happy if I never met her

It's too late now mommy i could never forget her

Could never forget how she told me to love

Cuz my father and my grandmother is always above

It's glory above you know that daddy taught me to thug

And everytime we was with nanny she'd bombard me with hugs[damn]

I MISS 'EM mommy and it's hard to believe

That i've grown and I don't understand that why did they leave



(Better to die and sleep then never wake and sleep 

Then linger on and dare to live when your souls life is gone)



You've been runnin' around for so long

You've been hurting yourself too much 

You keep messin' around with darkness

You're the one whose losin x2



Mommy I think Im'a that try to stick around a while

I got a niece and my nephews they need me around a while

I think they need me cuz they hittin that age

And they aint tryin to speak to Lenny cuz they spittin' they rage

And mommy speakin of Lenny I think my brother need me

And we Italian so you know my mother loved to feed me

And it's the little things you do for me that make it worth it

Like when I play a joint that we did and you say it's perfect

And when Jay got knocked you knew that I was hurt

You told me to my heart in a song and it worked

I promised him I'd be there when he got out the bing

You aint raised me to be a liar ma' thats not my thing

I told him that I'd hold him down the whole time that he gone 

they kept him locked in a cage but thats cool cuz hes strong

so mommy keep that first letter I wrote you on the low

I think I wanna stay alive and see if I can grow



You've been runnin' around for so long

You've been hurting yourself too much 

You keep messin' around with darkness

You're the one whose losing x2







I know that times were hard

I know that you've been feelin' down

If you only knew how im feelin' for you

If I could take your pain

I wish that I could wash it all away 

If you only knew how i'm feelïn'