[Cig:]

You ever ask yourself like "What's the point of it? Like why even wake

up anymore?" Shit, aint nuthin' ever gonna change man, same shit everyday. I

heard Erin's my guardian angel, well if that's the case, heaven watch over me

Yo



[Cig:]

Got my moms personality, my fathers temper

Look into my eyes and stare, it's as cold as Decembers

The attitude is fuck it, anybody could get it

Whomever, whenever, I don't give a fuck, it's whatever

Days have been better, my nights have been worse

It's kind of hard lookin' at you Katy, up in a herse

I feel like I could've saved you from what you did

Say goodbye to someone you know since you were a 4 year old kid?

I can't do it, you said I could help you, I've been through it

Now I'm wishin' I took up your proposition but I blew it

And I knew it as soon as you committed suicide

I didn't say nuthin' but there was a tear in my eye

Which is hard, cause I don't show emotion, I got pride

I thought about it myself, but I decided to survive

In my brothers eyes, I'm a hero, he thinks I'mma make him rich

But I can't look at him and let him know it's cause of this weed that I pitch

Heard life's a bitch, well fuck it till you're done

Never tuck it, just buck it son, and never fuckin' run

And all this bullshit I don't deserve it none

Got me feelin' like I don't even deserve to cum, so



[Chorus:]

Sometimes I wonder why I'm even alive

Like what's the point of it and why even try?

Outside we're happy but it's all just a lie

Join me and turn to angels up in the sky, as I puff my L



[Cig:]

I gotta blow up, I gotta get signed, I gotta blow up, I gotta kick rhymes

I gotta do me, gotta stay on the grind, I gotta blow up, my life's on the line

Ask me bout the haters, they aint never blowin' up

They like cops in the hood: They aint never showin' up

A lot of friends need me to get my flowin' up

Gotta make a lot of ends, so I aint never slowin' up

Drunk all night with questions I ask God

Like "Why is it every week I get a mass card?"

It's hard, but Jaime wipe away the tears you cried

They say the good die young, and that's why I'm still alive

There's an angel in the sky that wants you to rise

Stay strong cause you got good friends by your side

And as for myself, know it would be a lie

If I was to say I don't ever ask myself "Why?"



[Chorus]



[Cig:]

There's no words that express how much I love you

I rap so you don't have to sell drugs too

This phone keeps ringin' and I can't play Madden

Or a show in the city to get this deal rappin'

I'm sorry Michael, that I aint always there

But please understand that I really do care

Share a bond that they really can't match

Weather it's life issues or you wanna play catch

Cause you're the ruggedest youngin' that I know

And you're lookin' more like me the more that you grow

So when things are lookin' rough, I'mma guide you through it

Cause I been through it, I'mma help you ride through it

Pursue it, you aint gotta live the way I did

Aint gotta be a man yet, enjoy bein' a kid

I can't picture puttin' my life to an end

Cause he's more then a brother, he's my best friend



[Chorus]



[Cig:]

This song is dedicated to all the angels we lost in 2005. To all those

who feel there is no hope, your loss is my pain, and I am your voice. Join me

and pray for a safer and better 2006. God bless your family. I feel so alive,

as I puff my L