And so I lashed out outside and in

Vented my anger at every whim

I kicked the dog after poisoning his food

I couldn't think of anything else to do



And I was scared

Oh Lord so scared

And I couldn't dare

To really think about it all



And today

Nothing has changed

Nothing changed

Nothing has changed at all



And so I sink and sink and withdraw in

Looking up numbers of suicide hotlines

I almost cry no specific reason why

I fantasize about the day I die



And I am scared

Oh Lord so scared

And when will I dare

To really think about it all



Because this way

Nothing will change

Nothing will change

Nothing will change at all