That night there was no solution

And even now looking from so far away

I still can see no real solution

Like we're still living on that day

For me no day defined before and after

Like that one did so decisively

And every new day instead of healing

Makes me look back more painfully



On my night alone

I threw my life down the toilet

I tore my medals off my chest

I swore that this would be death

On my night alone



Did my tongue wag too much before?

Could a few words have sealed our fate?

No forgiveness allowed or forgiveness given

I said no to love and yes to hate

Some attempted praises I subtly botched

Outstretched hands did I ignore

Wrapped in a self-made coccoon of sorrows

Thinking of all that went on before



On my night alone

I threw my life down the toilet

I tore my medals off my chest

I swore that this would be death

On my night alone

Satan stood by my side

Took me for a hellish ride

I lit candles to my pride



That day stayed with me for months

Guided my every word and move

Laughed inside at all the wreckage

And I knew that we were doomed

With washed hands I watched

The events that sealed our fate

Til I saw what I'd really done

And then it was too late



On my night alone

I threw my life down the toilet

I tore my medals off my chest

I swore that this would be death

On my night alone

Satan stood by my side

Took me for a hellish ride

I lit candles to my pride