The chaos came: desires and passions 

Destroy my mind 

The strikes of heart and thoughts 

Can not get normal 

The innertion takes me 

To the lost points far away 

Once the feelings being so comfortable calm 

Become unruled and wild and pulsing 

The usual state of things 

Ceased to exist 

There stayed my pain 

The feeling of delight jealousy and passion 

I remain the same 

I do not change 

I play, manipulate and let the others 

Do with me the same, and then enoure 

I change surrounding and then 

Come back again. I find and lose 

The relaxation is found only 

In the unbridled passion 

In desire to dissolue or disappear 

But all in all the feeling now is  nealized 

The one I cannot understand 

It tries to conguen me and get me back 

And to restore all what was lost 

And that was just the decay of my soul 

The memories which are passionate and sweet 

Are mixed with everyday occurance 

Will I ever feel the other way? 

Please, present me with a gift 

Of the other state