i need help i cant leave i cant breathe. i see my way out but

I'm in too deep to care. emotionless, i feel myself about to break.

self-destruction, self corruption, this life i know, this life i hate.

with each passing day my outlets slip away. i believe the lies and

i dig myself in deeper. i play a daily game of tug a war  between

what's in my heart and what's on my mind, not weighing circumstances,

passing blindly by my chances knowing some day i might die. in the

silence of my nightmare noone else can hear me scream, noone else knows

what i need, noone else believes, i could die and not care. i need

something to set me free. reflections from my past that seem so unreal

to me, I'm out of touch i can no longer feel me, my heart is sick and

my mind is reeling. don't know myself, don't know why i still don't care

. I'm the only one that's paying, and I'm the only one that's playing.

the more i struggle the more i lose. i dig myself in deeper and still

don't care then the moment comes when you reach for my heart, i know

it's to hard to find