It's always darkest before it goes

Completely black

I'm older now so I should know

You never can look back



But the scars of childhood memories

Dominate my head

The inner pain I've vowed to keep

Until the day I'm dead



You can't see, the life I was forced to lead

What it's like to die daily

You can't feel, the thoughts I've learned to steal

Survival is my reality



When I was young I lived in fear

The hands of doom forever drawing near

I wonder how I learned to persevere

As time advanced deceit was my life's truth

Spurred on by the peace I never knew



Time does not heal

The scars that burned me in my youth

Time does not heal

The pain that carved in me the truth

Time does not heal

The torture struck upon my past

Time does not heal

The scars that were left and meant to last



Over the many years I've tried

To bury deep my past

Attempting to cope with what's inside

My wastelands of regret



But defeated before I began

To join the human race

Indelibly I've felt the brand

Of scars I can't erase



I was the fool, subversive and overrulled

Into my abyss I was pulled

The ways of hate, constantly agitate

The scars as they'd eviscerate



Inside my head desolation forms

Shadows grasping my mind through its storm

I couldn't see that I was being forewarned

That anguish was to take my life's controls

And rake it's wounds forever into my soul



Time does not heal

The scars that burned me in my youth

Time does not heal

The pain that carved in me the truth

Time does not heal

The torture struck upon my past

Time does not heal

The scars that were left and meant to last



I have learned to live alone, it's meant to be

Endless lies and emptiness fulfilling me

Life's there to decieve the truth you'll never see

Understand that I am dying to be free



Images have haunted me since I was young

Chilling were the arms of fear I was among

What were once just nightmares now have since become

Real atrocities which I can't escape from...



It's always darkest before it goes

Completely black

I've realized now that it's impossible

Surviving their attack



Through duress I'm borne, a past that's brought me scorn

And when I'm dead, will I be mourned?

The scars I've worn, the mental flesh I've shredded and torn



Time does not heal

The scars that burned me in my youth

Time does not heal

The pain that carved in me the truth

Time does not heal

The torture struck upon my past

Time does not heal

The scars that were left and meant to last