in my darkest days in my fits of rage
no regard for life all alone in a knife fight
an inner beast would never let me find peace
with morbid visions inflicting incisions
i swore to use my fists til i slashed my wrists
i welcomed death most nights
but had to settle my scores right
all that i could feel was grief and pain
i desired my destruction - i was going insane
from the miserable depths of a faded soul
spilled the vows or redemption - in a world so cold
before i threw it all away
i'd make mother fuckers pay
i wouldn't go out without one last bout
keep running away - for my soul i pray
redemption declared - on my soul i swear
will i ever truly rest in peace?
my life was a battle that would never cease
at war with myself my family and friends
my life my belief the pain never ends
now its too late to ever make a change
this negativity has got me fucking deranged
living this life always felt so strange
but death is forever burning in flames
keep running away - for my soul i pray
redemption declared - on my soul i swear
no life was wasted 'cause i made my peace
don't shed no tears for me
my soul has been released
enemy to the world myself and all others
there is no life my sickness smothers
i feel sometimes like life did me wrong
seeking revenge since the day i was born
keep running away - for my soul i pray
redemption declared - on my soul i swear