So I'm waiting for this test to end 

So these lighter days can soon begin 

I'll be alone but maybe more carefree 

Like a kite that floats so effortlessly 

I was afraid to be alone 

Now I'm scared thats how I'd like to be 

All these faces none the same 

How can there be so many personalities 

So many lifeless empty hands 

So many hearts in great demand 

And now my sorrow seems so far away

Until I'm taken by these bolts of pain 

But I turn them off and tuck them away 

'till these rainy days that make them stay 

And then I'll cry so hard to these sad songs 

And the words still ring, once here now gone

And they echo through my head everyday 

And I dont think they'll ever go away 

Just like thinking of your childhood home 

But we cant go back we're on our own 

Oh, 

But i'm about to give this one more shot 

And find it in myself 

I'll find it in myself 

So were speeding towards that time of year 

To the day that marks that you're not here 

And i think I'll want to be alone 

So please understand if I dont answer the phone 

I'll just sit and stare at my deep blue walls 

Until I can see nothing at all 

Only particles some fast some slow 

All my eyes can see is all I know 

Ohh.. 

But I'm about to give this one more shot 

And find it in myself 

I'll find it in myself