do you want to know what this has done to me? 

the rage pours down into pools of grieving 

oh and your smiles turn to leprosy 

turn to sickness spread into your hearts 

and the pain sinks roots which smother all 

but have borne a seedling - a life of hatred and distrust 

you lied in ways. . . you never should have spoken 

acceptance conditional 

your honesty with fingers crossed behind my back 

become the blade that stabs me over and over and over and over again 

this time the betrayal is forever 

this time will have been the last time 

i believe 

to have given my self away 

but now there is a new me 

so proud to be the hating tree 

my arms out-stretched - they will withstand most everything 

now there is a new me 

so sad to be the hating tree 

as an offering i gave oh me, my self 

the madness and the laughter 

insight 

a love so full 

and a mirror that once told me to believe again 

now cries with me for the loss 

i know too well 

oh and the pain sinks roots which smother all 

but have borne a seedling - a life of hatred and distrust 

for you lied in ways. . . you never should have spoken 

acceptance conditional 

your honesty with fingers crossed behind my back 

become the blade that stabs me over and over and over and over again 

but this time the betrayal is forever 

this time will have been the last time 

i believe 

to have given my soul away 

now there is a new me 

so proud to be the hating tree 

my arms out-stretched - they will withstand most everything 

now there is a new me 

so sad to be the hating tree