How often I run

From everything inside of me

But there is no doubt

I'm not yet free from what's haunting me



I'm hiding here

I'm fighting my thoughts for control here

An oh so familiar fugue

I'm afraid I'm returning to 

Masochistic depths of the blue



I know they're coming for me

They want to rob my youth



I can't escape, can't evade them

They're in my head

I'm being taken so deep below

So deep below in the undertow



Control the blue

Cuz I'm sick of drowning here

And the waves keep crashing down on me

I'm afraid of what I'll do in this solitude

Just control the blue



And they're ringing in my brain

And I can here them so loud and clear

That silence is the thing that I most fear

They're screaming the harshest things 

They tell me what I should do

And I keep giving way to all they say

Transforming hate into scathing truth



I know they'll soon control me

They want to end my youth



Internal thunder pulling me under 

I can't stop the rain

I'd give anything to ease the pain

To make the torment go away



Control the blue

Cuz I'm sick of drowning here

And the waves keep crashing down on me

I'm afraid of what I'll do in this solitude

Just control the blue



The storm is coming now

I can feel the evidence

The fury's all around

Combating demons in my head

My psychosis has been fed

(The room is spinning round)



Can't flee don't you see

Cuz I'm my own worst enemy

Can't take or break away 

From what's killing me

My near future's hard to see

Cuz no one hates me more than me

My downward spiral now owns me



Control the blue

Cuz I'm sick of drowning here

And the waves keep crashing down on me

I'm afraid of what I'll do in this solitude

Just control the blue



I know they're coming for me

I'll try to hold my youth