Oh my god
My god this can't be happening
God tell me, tell me this isn't real
I can't believe all that I have forseen is finally happening
I cannot for a single second stand the way I feel
I always knew, I always saw it coming
Enveloped now, encased by my worst fear
I've never felt the nausea of wanting to feel nothing
I've never wanted to cease to exist
Just disappear

Fear memories are all that lie ahead
Never have I felt so lost
Fear tragedies are all that lie ahead
Never have I felt so dead

Once felt so warm
Now I'm fucking freezing
I am the once embraced, abandoned one
I lifted my eyes up to the light in hopes of finding healing
No relief was mine, I was burnt by the sun

I feel so lost